ThE CurTaiN CloseS FoR ThE MiRaCLe WoRkEr!! :(

so..after writing for almost an hour about this article that i read..i didn't save this crap i lost everything i wrote..I'm soo mad now i have to do it again ad to remember what i wrote is going to take me a while.

just like I'm feeling right now i guess that's kind the feeling they had on that moment of frustration maybe failure. and all because money,well i dint because of money mine is because my computer is crap but ..anyways...after seen the movie along time ago my first thought was OMG is freaking hard most of it if you are not blind or deaf.
then i read the play almost a year ago..reading stage directions and all that's stuff kept me busy just thinking about all the directions and everything..imagine all the time months and months of rehearsals blocking, working with those costumes from the time of the play was written everything comes into place.

as a actress i been involved on the school i know what it feels to not have the budget to build the best set ever, best lightning best everything but every time we have a production we always have to do something extra to do it, sometimes we help to build the stage and we learn how to do it.

every piece of the stage, the house the floor even every chair on the room means something to us..and that keep us working 110% everyday to me this kind of situation makes me more powerful and more motivated but i know we don't have enough resources to have the production we want and we complain lot because we cant do as much as we want bit is not our fault sometimes we have to get use to the idea of what kind of productions is going to be or what kind of props we have to relate it with or even the costumes are crappy sometimes but that's no reason to put all that job away.


but in this case when i read the article i was kind of sad i mean imagine all your work for nothing.. just because we can raised more money or reach the budget we thought it was going to be to keep the play on production for along time ad nothing. as i read i knew they try top have the performance at least for 2 more weeks but the producers said no and they had to stick on the idea of no doing that anymore, they had less and less audience every performance until they got into the conclusion.

the thing that made me mad was the fact that was the used of Mr. Richmathal describing Helen as a "Lil Sunshine and not as Blind or deaf" got the media crazy saying as an excused that it was also the acting and stuff like that i mean how you compete with something like that ..is just no fair and it makes me mad how the say anything about it but nobody really respect the work of the actors all the efforts they made to make that production real and truthful. is frustrated for me think about how a production like this depends so uch on money like everything in this world, imagine how many things would you do with tons of money ..well this is one of them. have to close a great production just because it wasn't getting a lot of audience or something like that, reach the limited budget to keep the play on.
and now i know that something like this may happen to me on the future and i have to know to confront that and keep going with my life because like i read before is all about business... if theres no money there is no show...you may can for whatever you want on the streets with your friends but a big production like this...never!!!

VIDEO
i mean look at the video of the preview of the play is fantastic and this girl is so young and so good..i have seen her before on TV shows and now seen her doping stuff like that is amazing how much you can grow from TV screen to the stage..been performing on stage it makes you much ore knowledgeable of you as an actor than TV , because you interact with your people 1005 percent of the time, is just great. is really to sad for me read something like this, but i guess that's how the professional world works, and i totally respect the work of these actors during the performance and if i would have the money to get a ticket i would definitely go without any problems.

We AlL ArE AcToRs!!

why we are all actors? why people think acting is just on stage? acting is everywhere you apply that every single moment of your life, I'm not saying acting is an easy job but unconsciously people is acting. we are all actors.

Do you remember when you were little and you knew when your mom didn't wanted to buy your favorite chocolate or favorite toy... you cry YOU FAKE and you cry, because you know after crying she is going to get that for you. and as soon as we get older we start doing it more often, at work, with friends, society, family, with yourself including your boyfriend or girlfriend. because there is nothing more funny than, imagine you are talking with your boyfriend and you want to start fighting ..and you do it you act so well that you really looked angry that he believes in you and at the end your acting becomes reality and you began a real fight because you are that good on that. is not that funny?
or your professor at school or director want to talk to you and you need a backup..what you do? you FAKE, you make an story from nowhere and at the end is the perfect story ever..sometimes you can even cry!!..i remember when i was in high school most of my friends used to do that but once they get out of the director office they start laughing because he did believe on what they said!...you see we are all actors is all there!.
Oh! but get into an acting class.. tell me if can do it? hell no! because now you are shy, (people is watching you, you feel awkward, embarrassed and you start shaking all you want to do is sit with everybody else). buy why? you do that all the time and everybody is watching you as well!! everybody wants 100% the attention of people.well once you are on stage you got it so do it..but it is hard.


that's why i think everybody are actors everybody can do anything..but is not the same. that's the hardest part of been an actor..you don't fake anymore..you learned to make the story a reality, a real person, real feelings and most of the physical reactions are real from the inside to the outside..an exposition of you,way way on the ground. is a huge exploration of yourself to get into the point where you find the reasons why the character on the play is feeling that..why is doing that...and that's where all the magic comes out.
is beautiful..is not awkrness is the beauty of stand in front of people that you don't know and cry, or laugh or scream on the top of your lungs..and expos ion of the human being and that's the scariest part for someone who haven't done anything like this...i mean who likes to cry and have a lot of people watching..(no body for sure).or be naked maybe.

but if you think deeply we all do that..how important is to us cry with your best friend..or alone..when you want to scream and you run as fast as you can so nobody can hear, the love feeling.what you do? eat, cry, sing, but you don't express to anybody why. but people is watching; your best friend is watching you crying, when you thought while you were running that nobody saw you..well they did maybe your neighbor, the sky, the mountains or the same sun..we're never alone.

i was reading one article from Steven Fernandez about we all have masks and we hide alot of our identity..I'm agree with him but that's not everybody and like i said before,not everything on acting is fake...most of the best acting performances on drama even on comedy comes from background from the same actors that they feel related from..experiences from their lives that they feel connected with the characters and apply those feelings to it. and not everybody is like that. there are a few who really know who they are and what the feel and what they want. that doesn't mean that theres someone who have never lie before or fake a laugh or smile or a sad face,including crying.

he also talks about we are all actors and we live our on stage and we do..we create our environment, costume, make up objectives on life, decisions, super objectives, props..way of interact with people around you including language, you always think about what you are going to say,and if you wanna say something most of the time you have a reason to say it or if you are not thinking about it you still keep doins something, or an specific action. you decide your own way,either failure or develop the capacity to win and reach your goals until the final scene.

that's how life is, we have all the tools to make it real. to make your goal happened, your enemies your friends your lovers everything you do is because that's the way you wanted to.
we are all actors, either you are truthful with yourself or not. you don't have to be on stage to show that..is all there and you will always have someone there watching.

a lot of people might disagree with me but..that's why theater is for sometimes right? your free to do a lot of things that are impossible or not accepted by society on real life right? i mean imagine you can be whoever you want whenever you want..Doctor, dentist, teacher, athlete, a crazy woman, a ghost, a freaking alien!!!! or an avatar ha! imagine that..is not that awesome?
http://www.msuiit.edu.ph/ipag/studies/drama/topics/actors.html

Fat???..is that a solution??

Why some students tend to gain weight and lose weight that fast?
the eating disorders continue to be on the rise among college students. the media is affecting our ways of thinking and ways of eating also, seeing celebrities with a small body or cute guys with the perfect body is affecting us so bad that some students struggle with their classes for spending too much time working out or to tired of doing exercises that is impossible for them to keep track of their homework and important things to do besides sports.

When the pressure gets together like on finals, or too much party and you had a lot of things to work on behind, alot of students turn into anorexia to block of what is happening. believing that losing weight is the one thing they can succeed. others turn into bulimia or a compulsive eating as a way to deal with pressures and emotions.

The Massachusetts Eating Disorders Association cites the following statistics on college student eating disorders:
• 15% of women 17 to 24 have eating disorders
• 40% of female college students have eating disorders
• 91% of female college students have attempted to control their weight through dieting

http://www.waldenbehavioralcare.com/eating_disorders_among_college_students.asp


When things do go awry, some people find solace in controlling their eating habits. Many eat junk food whenever they feel badly, and then the guilt is so overpowering that they vomit it all back up. Others eat less and less in hopes of losing weight and becoming the ideal size.

Some sites said that you might wont be able to recover from an eating disorder, but you do. it takes alot of time but you do, the difficult part of it is accepting the fact that you are not doing okay. we have to be conscious of how important is to keep ourselves eating well but not concerned about how you look, you should thing about the benefits of eating well gives you like : more energy,your mind works better, you body, is hard to get an infection, even when you have to study alot it helps you to keep your body working on the right way.
really quickly.

without forgetting that fast food is not good for you, you might think eating well mean having 3 meals a day. well is not, your body needs fuel, but not the cheapest one like hamburgers or fries or too much bread. grease food makes you sleepy tired and most of the time low energy,acid indigestion, sour stomach or hart burn sometimes.

http://www.mirror-mirror.org/myths.htm

"be Smart and eat right", remember that you are the one that is taking care of your body, you have to respond to that and make sure you have the right fuels in your body to keep doing that you like and maybe not have the perfect body but be happy with what you have, and make other things your priorities like studies and yourself not just exercise and what society thinks about you. love yourself, because nobody else is going to do ti for you, a healthy life style it keeps you alive longer that you think.

" is not the way you look, is the way you feel, and think".

Is all about CHEESE!!!!

I remember since i was around 4 or 5 , i used to go over the kitchen any time of the day and grab that huge block of cheese and have the biggest bite ever...you could see the shape of my mouth on the white and tasty Mexican cheese. omg my mother used to get sooo mad.

but man cheese is the best invention ever i don't care how much fat has or how bad is for you, you know, the taste is amazing. plus it makes everything different, taste is better with cheese and omg the shape of the cheese when is melting on your quesadilla or on your pizza...one of the best moments of my life!!.

I think before it was crazy the amount that i used to put on every meal i had back home, it was on everything it was more cheese than rice or spaghetti or whatever i had on my plate.. until i get here. is top eating that much cheese i still do it but here is so expensive i mean back home for a big block is 5 dollars and here is like 20!! for a good block or cheese or maybe more. i really wanted to kill myself, there's no way i was willing to buy cheap cheese i mean i know every kind of cheese and i know every flavour of it !! is my biggest addiction every besides coffee or raisins i guess this one is the number one for sure. but the cheeses here never melt never or it does but i takes for ever or sometimes is so cheap that it melt fast and it doesn't have any taste.. OH God it makes me soo mad eat my quesadilla or pizza with hard cheese like once is fresh the cheesse is awesome you can see the cheese stretching while your getting you slice of pizza or a bite of your quesadilla, but never stays!! if you leave it for 3 min it gets hard and is not the same!!! i hate that sooo much!!!.

oh but nothing like the Mexican cheese.. stays for ever, taste is oh i wish i could explain i cant even describe the taste in my mouth because i don't even remember hahaha!!!..

When i go home the first thing i have is cheese just a slice so my mouth can remember the taste, and my mother know that if there's no cheese in the house. there's no way we can't eat, is like for us tortilla is essential for every meal..well cheese is essential in my house..aw and i love to have white cheese and jalapeno. cheese on my quesadilla with tons of jalapeno and tomato!!! oh best combination ever ..with avocado..oh God kill me now, is 12:30 am and i wish i could go home and make myself a quesadilla right now hahaha!!. i remember one time i ate so much cheese for a whole week that i couldn't go to the bathroom, i thought i was going to die, i was going to explode!! until i knew it was the cheese but i didn't care..

Aw like fresh cheese,it has an crumbly texture, and when they are heated they do not melt, but they do become soft and creamy without losing their shape.

you can also slice fresh cheeses into sticks or tubes and fry it without breading and it will become brown and crispy on the outside and soft on the inside. i just can imagine the smell with right now. just like my favorite one is the "asadero cheese" ow with BBQ is the best ever!!!.

For sure one of the biggest reason that i would like to go back to Mexico ill do it for the cheese we really do have the best cows ever . i went to Wisconsin two weeks ago and they supposed to have good cheese and they do, but nothing is better than home made cheese man. There's a fabric on my city. you can buy your cheese and is just fresh out of the machine or oven i dont evern know how they made this. just like my mother said" it just came out fresh from the cow".